Ring the alarm I've been thru this too long

So I think over estimate my ability not to care. My step-brother came home this weekend and he woke me to tell me he was leaving today, and off I went back to noonoo town. Maybe it's bc I sent the weekend with my lil man, then was sick, and now it's all coming together, This is for real. But i just miss everyone today. I've never wanted to be so many places at once. I guess that's part of growing up and it sux, really. But I its true, you don't know what you've got till its gone.

I miss midnight snacks with my step-bro. I miss him making fun of our parents together, and I really don't know how im going to get thru November rain without him. I miss teasing him about his hair that he doesn't brush and wondering what else he stole of his sisters.

I miss late night drinks and Zuma with my brother. I miss stopping by and visiting him at work and complaining about work and then going home. I miss having someone to try $4 wine with and watch The Office with. i miss someone screaming UNO! down the hall when I loose a game of UNO! I miss someone distracting me as I tell my mother about how crazy my Gma is.

I guess I just miss my friends.

Baby when Im looking out, Im surrounded by your warm embrace

Right now my life consists of studying, napping, and cleaning bums. Seriously, not homeless bums either, physical bumbums. Im up to 3-4 dAYS a weeks so I can attempt to save for new semester, the most important semester of my life!! Tho I did buy new earrings, they are gorgeous!!!! But it will be a small christmas, not like my super $700 christmases from before that take me all of january and february to pay off. This christmas is going to be, "Thanks for handing over my car payment next month to me Im so excited to be an adult." *kisses* mb one gift for everyone and under $300. The little ones are going to be hard NOT to buy for. They are soo soo cute!!

For christmas I just want some sleep, peace, and able to see everyone. From Brookfield to West Virginia, to Richmond. I just want an enjoyable New years Eve and my health.

oh there goes gravity, its back to reality

so after the 5 minutes it took me to log in im ready to have a meltdown!! I just got home from traffic court, what a joke, just like the rest of my life. The people that were around me looked like they spent all day fixing their and drinking beer. Then the took a nap and kicked their dog on the way out the door to court. OMG!!! Camo pants and ripped T-shirt is not suitable attire for court, no matter how unjust. WTF is wrong with people.

The judge didn't even look at me and it was only $15 cheaper to go in person. No contest your honor.

"Sign that paper and take it to room 5." as he's staring at his desk prob making scribbles of a banana fudge sunday. Welcome to mahoning county bitches!!!

Ima be living the good life

Where have i been the last 2 weeks? well, let me just re-cap. Last saturday one of my best friends gma's died. Calling hours tuesday. Work wednesday, I went in early bc they were frantic. They forgot to mention that they were frantic r/t the state surveyer being in the building!!! Oh, and my favorite resident died. oh, Mrs. suicide I miss you. She died of natural causes, monday morning.

So here i sit on saturday night, studying for 2 tests monday, and one test friday morning. Then friday morning, Im busting outta here to go to VA to see my lil man!!!